And so it begins...finally, sort of!

More than a year ago, I found myself in a very dark place. Events had unfolded in my life that were not particularly new. Things were said that had been said before and ignored. However, this time they struck me in a very personal, physical, and emotional way. This time, I just couldn't let things go, just couldn't ignore the pain. This time it was real, and scary. It was as if my world had been turned upside down. There was an anger within me that I had not felt before; a feeling of unforgiving that I was not willing to move beyond. Things didn't make sense, and it seemed as if every day brought more doubts, confusion and pain. 

As the days passed, my situation did not seem to change. What I felt I believed in was no longer real or meaningful to me. What I thought to be an anchor in a storm was now drifting with some uncontrollable tide, and carrying me right along with it. Weeks of confusion, searching, and questioning turned into months. I put on the best face that I could, and tried to move forward. It seemed that I had entered my own personal "dark night of the soul."

My journey out of this dark night (now you know which way I'm headed) has been underway for a little more than a year now. But, I once again find myself unable to sleep, and thinking about how to spend some of the late night hours that have just become early morning ones! What better way to spend this time than by finally starting the blog I had set up near the beginning of my way back into the light. 

So here is my introduction; my "toe dip" into sharing my personal thoughts and ramblings with anyone in the world who chooses to read them. I can't guarantee that they will be amazing, insightful or meaningful to anyone else. But I know they will be mine.